November 19, 2011

Knitting Paradise and the Amazing Generosity of Strangers

Hey there,

Over the last couple of months I have been trying to find things to create passion in my life… I guess that is the perpetual mission of my blog. I have wanted to write this post for a while and I am so glad I am actually getting to it!

The first half of my newly created knitting, spinning and relaxation corner.

In September, after creeping a great knitting forum called knittingparadise.com I decided to start a Swap for Canadian knitters. Continue reading

September 25, 2011

Especially for TitaniumBabe

Hello,

I have decided to post a special post for TitaniumBabe. We happen to be Titanium Sisters and she has been an invaluable source of wisdom and support. Thanks, T.B. You have found a permanent place in my heart. xoxooooo

I don’t want to leave out the other important people that have found a way into my heart as well, so Caroline, Pat and Roo; you all get special mentions and hugs too. I don’t know what I would have done had you not discovered my blog. (Or in some cases, I discovered yours.) Hugs to you all!! Continue reading

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September 17, 2011

News… Can News Be Ambivalent??

This post was written two or three days after a follow-up consultation with my orthopedic surgeon  on August 22, 2011.  I still am rather ambivalent about the news… Sometimes I just want to be held. I just want someone to say it is all going to get better.  Most of all I want to believeit! Read on…

Hello Everyone,

So I had an appointment with my surgeon on Tuesday. I haven’t seen him in three months. Three months ago, my fusion was coming along nicely; he put me in a physio strengthening and flexibility program and by all accounts, I should have been ready to go back to work in September. That was before this latest appointment and x-ray…

I am still in so much pain. I have improved so much in physio, doubling my core strength already, but it hasn’t helped with my nerve pain that still travels all the way to my knee. For the first few months after surgery I would notice every week or two that my nerve pain had come out of my toe or my foot, ankle ect. But it has been eight weeks with no change in the intensity or location of  the pain. No one knows if this is permanent. I don’t know what I am going to do if it is.  Continue reading

August 31, 2011

“What am I doing here? How did I get here? What now?” and “The Surreal Nature of Life”

This is a draft from Aug 2, 2011 I had consigned to the never publish pile, but it is my blog and if not every piece is gold, so what. I hope you enjoy!   -S.

Hi!

Two of my favorite bloggers, backonmyown and Caroline, have really made me think about why I feel so out of place and confused. Caroline wrote a wonderful blog post entitled The Surreal Nature of Life, it is one of those interesting pieces of writing that are short and concise but also make you think so deeply that your head hurts. Caroline expresses the feeling of being out of place in the world. With all the major changes and traumas in her life she says that she feels like “what I’m living through just can’t be really happening.  That this – in some way – isn’t real.” This is a bang on description of my current confusion, nothing feels real.

After typing out a response to her post I read through the comments and came across backonmyown’s comment that simply and touchingly offered something incredibly valuable but nothing more than empathy and understanding. Also, she articulated some of the questions that were previously revolving undefined in my mind: What am I doing here? How did I get here? What now?

What am I doing here? How did I get here? What now?

Can any of you answer these questions regarding themselves?

When and if I find some answers, I will be sure to let you all know! 😀

As Always, Thanks For Reading!                                                            -S.