Sometimes…

Sometimes I feel like I am failing and I am flailing to hold onto anything I can grasp. There are days that are so dark I can’t see past the gloom, when I feel like my pain and sadness will swallow me whole, and sometimes I think that would be preferable to loosing a small part of what makes me me everyday…I have days when I can’t see the furture, when it feels like there can’t possibly be  a worse future beyond today and then I wake up tomorrow and sometimes it is worse. Sometimes I just don’t want to be strong anymore, sometimes I can’t pick myself up, sometimes I can barely bare to breathe. Sometimes I don’t want to. Somedays I don’t want to be in pain any more…

Coming Home… Or The Beginning of Recovery

I have been promising this post for a long time, I am not sure why I have been avoiding it. This is the last chapter of the story needed to bring all my dear readers through my journey up to now. I can think of numerous reasons why I wouldn’t want to write this, but none of them seem to be really valid? Maybe sub-consciously I didn’t want to write it, as it is one of the most trying emotional periods yet and it is also still very fresh in my mind, or maybe it is just my deeply ingrained procrastination at work. I think it also makes me a bit sad that I can no longer look back on a time that is a distant memory, I am at the point in my posts where I am just about up to date and I will have to start looking at the present…

S. Walks! – Collage

Caroline commented that one of my photos would look better if I cropped it and suggested I download Picasafrom Google. I am somewhat of a PhotoShop girl, but have not been able to purchase a copy and am not happy with the online version. So when I was directed here I was a bit sceptical, but I have to say that it is a good, if basic, photo editing system One thing that gives it an edge in comparison with some other free suites I have tried that you have the ability to create albums and orginize your pics from the same place you edit them. So… I checked it out, and really can’t thank Caroline enough.

I have been playing around with Picasa  for a few days (Click here to download Picasa from Google) and while it is quite basic it does some interesting things. I was really impressed with the collage feature that allows you to upload as many photos as you’d like into one file and automatically arranges all of them into a collage style jpeg file. There are a few different options for the collage format and you can also apply all the effect available for single photos to the collage as a whole.

Interlude

I Can't Sleep!!

I know I said I would try to remain positive in this space, but I am just all out of positivity at this time. I also promised that my next post would bring my readers to where I am in my recovery now, but I am not in the mood to tell the rest of the story, so this is an interlude.